Chillin....

Well, it has been awhile since my last post. I've been pretty busy. Still waiting on the government to let me know something about my disability. It's been a year and a half since my court date. They don't get in a hurry, unless they want something from you. That's my issue with the government. Well that and their belief that they can spend my money for me.

Everyone around here went camping for the weekend. Wish we could have went too. Just don't ever know about my schedule. Jerimiah has been going to school, since my last post. He really enjoys it. He talks about the days activities when he gets home. He always talks about it with such excitement. I wish I still had that excitement in me. I just find it so hard to even force a smile anymore.

Crystal and I are really struggling right now. We are fine, as far as being married, it's the financial part of our lives, that has us against the wall. We continue to dig along, but I'm not sure how long we can do it. It's really hard. She is my whole world. She is so strong. She keeps me going daily. She lost her mother in November. It is really tough for her. She cries daily. I told her she needs to talk to someone. I'm afraid that if she doesn't, she will completely break when something happens to her father.

We'll for now, I'm out. Main event coming on. (ultimate fighter finale) God bless. Be cool, and be careful.

Back after a short break and some breakthroughs...........

Well I haven't wrote in quite some time.  I have been dealing with some issues in my personal life.  I have started therapy and i am doing daily journals.  I thought that maybe i could do a daily summary each day on my blog.  I'm sorry if this isn't what you thought it would be when you started following or reading or however it works with blogs.  it is just a daily outlet for me.  if you have some input or an experience you would like to share, i would love to hear from you.  I had a pretty decent day today until about 11 am.  i got some news that upset me a little.  i tried to fight the building rage and finally had to breakdown and take a "chill" pill.  I think they might be a little strong.  I wasn't getting that "calming" sensation the doctor was describing so i thought they weren't working well.  i never put together the fact that every time i took on i ended up in bed all day long.  I took a nap today, and after i got up and wrote in my journal, i feel asleep in the recliner.  lmao  wow. i haven't slept like this in a long time.  it feels good in a way.  but i guess i should be about caught up on my sleep.  lmao.  Christan and Jeremiah had been sick , but they are both doing great now.  I'm not sure if I have written, since my Aunt Rose has passed.  I went to KY to her funeral.  She was a big part of my life.  I sure do miss her.  Well i think I'm gonna call it a night.  thanks for any input that any of you might have.  be cool and be careful.  GOD BLESS.

Been Awhile

   Well it's been awhile since my last post.  Sorry about that.  Just had alot going on.  I've got a couple videos I'm gonna post.  They are of my nephews, Jerimiah and Christian.  They are my baby sister, Ashley, 's two boys.  The boys are a great part of my life.  I see them every morning, no matter what.  Crystal has been working alot, or it seems like it anyway.  I pinched a nerve in my back a week ago and I am so over it.  All I can do is sit around the house.  Some days are better then others of course.
     Aunt Rose isn't doing to well.  She fell again today and her eyes are starting to yellow.  She still has good days and bad days.  I think the bad days are more common now.  Her youngest daughter, Marthy, is down helping Teresa take care of her.  I hope that Rosie can make it to the family reunion next week.  I may ride down with dad.
     Well since I pinched a nerve in my back, I haven't been able to work.  This really sucks because that means that I am not contributing money to the household expenses.  That is the worst thing about it.  It is really degrading to a man when everything he has every worked for is taken away from him.  Then on top of all that, I've pinched a nerve in my back and now work has been taken from me.  I hope with all my heart that nothing else happens.
     My step mom, Jackie,  just got home from the hospital yesterday.  She was sent Monday, from her doctors office.  They thought that she was having or had had a heart attack.  She had numerous tests ran as well as a heart catheter.  The catheter showed clean veins and a great heart.  I'm glad that she is in good cardiac health.

     Well gonna close with a couple videos of the boys.  One of the videos is of Christian taking a couple of steps.  The video of Jerimiah shows him dancing in the front yard at dad's.  These videos are great and are sure to make you smile.  Be cool and be careful.  GOD Bless.

A great weekend

     well it has been an exciting and eventful weekend.  Went to a couple races this weekend. Friday night, Brian(my brother), Larry(my dad), went to the truck race Friday night out at orp. it was hot, humid night, but it was a blast.  Ron Hornaday won the race.  No one could catch him all night.
     Sunday Brian, Chad(Brian's step-son), Cason(Chad's son), and i went to watch the brickyard 400.  The day started out nice, cool, and breezy.  The sun soon came out to begin the baking, and cooking of the thousands of unwitting hunks of meat.  Some fought back with sunscreen, while others tried to fight the red hot ball of gas with shade, using umbrellas, and towels, and the such, to shield themselves.  Kyle bush wrecked on the first lap so my day started out wonderful.  Juan Pablo dominated the race, much like he did last year.  Once again the gremlins of the Indianapolis Motor Speedway, denied him his much earned, and deserved victory.  We had a great time and I really look forward to doing it again.
    The weekend was long , but a blast.  I had a really good time, as i hope those that experienced it with me, did.  Well not much more to write, for my brain is really tired and ready for some rest.  Be cool and be careful.  GOD Bless.

Another day in life of.......

     Well, hello there.  It's been a few days since i last wrote.  we've been pretty busy with things.  Everything is going well and looks to keep rolling along at that pace.  Crystal finally got done with her inventory at work.  She worked alot of hours that week.  It really wore her out.

     My aunt Rose isn't doing any better.  I think the end is near.  I just hope she goes while in her sleep as to not have a painful end.  She has began to pass blood and the hospice nurse told my cousin that anyone that wanted to see her should do so really soon.  I wish i could've got down there this past weekend, but funds just didn't allow it.  Shelb and Ed got to go down this past weekend.  they said she looks fine but she's not doing good.

     Mom and Dad had Christian's first birthday party on Saturday.  He had such a good time eating his cake.  I think it's cool for the stores to give a baby their first cake just for them.  of course, not all of his gifts were toys.  I think he got a few outfits.  I know he got some new shoes.  He is just so funny to watch.  He's starting to walk.  he took 5 steps for me yesterday.  He trys so hard to talk.  He just can't get the words to come out like he trys to.

     Well gonna get outta here for now.  Gonna go play some poker on facebook.  facebook.com/turp415  You should look me up.  Be cool and be careful.  GOD bless.

Rainy day at home.

     Well, nothing really exciting today.  It's raining , and I don't much care for rain.  My nephew, Matt,  is here with me today.  His mother, Sue, asked me to watch him while she works.  Matt's playing with the xbox360 and I'm, as usual, surfing the net.

     My aunt Rose isn't doing to good.  She has forgotten how to use her cell phone.  She gets frustrated easy nowadays.  A couple of my aunts went down to visit this past weekend. They have called to let me and dad know how she is doing.  Dad want to try to get back down there and take the boys, Jeremiah and Christian, down to see her.  My Cousin just called to ell us that the nurse told her to call in the family, because it won't be long.  The brain tumor is progressing faster than they thought.  Not much more to say about that, it leaves me speechless.  It just happened so fast.  Tell those that are important in your life how much they matter and how you feel.  They can be gone so fast.

     Crystal is working today.  She's off tomorrow.  She works so  hard.  She made dept mgr pretty quick.  She is very experienced in her dept.  Sometimes after a hard day, when she's ready for bed early, i give her about an hour and then i go in and lay beside her and just watch her sleep.  She doesn't know, but she seems so peaceful while she's sleeping.  She has turned into a beautiful, intelligent, strong woman.  I love her dearly, and she is my rock.  She is my night and day.

    Well not much else to say.  Oh, I do go bowling tonite.  Casino league is tonite.  It's a pretty fun league.  Well going to call it a day.  Be cool and be careful.  GOD Bless.

recovering from the fourth

well we've been busy since returning from knoxville. crystal has been working long hours getting ready for her yearly inventory and i've just been trying to get back into the swing of things. Aunt Rose is doing fine for the time being. She seems in good spirits when i talk ed to her yesterday. well gonna call it a night. be cool and be careful. GOD bless